Wednesday, March 31, 2004
Westlife - If I Let You Go
Day after day
Time passed away
And I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows, I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find
The courage to show to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
Chorus:
But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I know
If I let you go?
Night after night I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you
You speak to my heart
It's such a shame
we're worlds apart
I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
(Chorus)
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
(chorus)
A truly memorable song for me. It will always be. :)
11:05 PM
just submitted my poems to my teacher via email.
for a competition at Raffles Junior College or smth?
It's definitely not good enough from my perception though.
It'll be a probable display of.... junk.
10:33 PM
Tuesday, March 30, 2004
well, i've decided to chuck out the password popup
as it was starting to grate on me (and im sure others too).
besides, many has been urging me to remove that annoyance.
so fine, i'll let the entire bluidy world, who has access here,
have the privilege of being critical and judgmental on my flaws.
have been rather wearisome to blog anything up here.
maybe the teevee has transformed into an addictive machine?
beats me.
other than being assiduous (astoundingly),
listening to amorous songs which harks me back to
some place which i should not even lay foot on,
having many hypothetical perception of almost anything,
and falling in love all over again with my best friend..
well.... i don't know what else i have been up to.
off to watch smallville now.
here's a verity to ruminate about..
"those who natter to you, will natter on you."
10:31 PM
Sunday, March 28, 2004
I have unearthed the love of my life
that was obscured beneath ineffectual fallacies of life.
perpetuity is skulking only in your gaze
thats where my bona fide gaiety lies.
without you, eternity is inaccessibly distant
and is unfeasibly in the sticks, so out of reach.
and unquestionably, my life would never be completed
as you have indubitably become the other half of me.
12:08 AM
Friday, March 26, 2004
in fact, i think you are wrong. utterly wrong.
you have every right to kvetch and show your discontentment.
i know my presence seems to be inconspicuous altho its still there.
yes, we have been caught up in our own worlds.
yes, we rarely see nor talk to each other anymore.
and i also do know that missing and thinking of you all the time
ain't gonna alleviate the yawn that is seperating the both of us.
and honestly, i admit i'm selfish too.
selfish and too easily jealous as a matter of fact.
i do not want to share you either.
Not at all.
but reality reminds me that there are others who think this way too.
fact being you're such fun to be with, unlike me.
and i have no choice but to accept that cruel fact.
i may be close to the group as of currently,
however with all truths, replacing you is definitely out of depth.
indubitably an utterly unfeasible thing.
i abhor time. i abhor it for passing so quickly.
i abhor the fissure between us. i abhor it for seperating us.
i abhor my schedule. i abhor it for not allowing me to be with you.
succinctly, i abhor myself.
11:52 PM
woo. im using a labtop in my room!
hahaha, its all mine. ALL MINE. -malicious grin-
pretty much has happened in school for this week,
i can't be bothered to blog about the details though.
and i'm enjoying the company of the indonesian girls in my class
they're such a lovable hilarity. heehee.
and as for the detestable and incorrigible ones,
reflect on yourself and know your limits before retribution befalls on you.
okay, not that i believe in that shyt but what the heck.
Finally watched Honey!
Pretty interesting show. still prefer Dirty Dancing 2 though.
gonna watch it again in a couple of minutes! :D
Oh, and Paul ain't here tonight.
He went to taipei. THATS A RELIEF.
haha, but he'll be over when he returns.
shyckataboo.
farcical it irrefutably is,
thoughts of you shouldn't be swimming in my head.
11:40 PM
Finally completed my geography assignment.
i was extremely infuriated when my printer couldn't function.
it simply refused to print the documents which i have spent
tons of effort and my snoozing time on.
i could have simply detonate that bluidy damned printer.
Hmmm, I sense ludicrousness and idiocy in me right now.
and i have an awful trepidation that i might plummet into
one of the most perilous fallacies of all.
it has been manipulating my mind with memories as sweet as sin
and harking me back to times where i wished time had froze,
instigating seemingly forgotten sentiments to be reinstated again.
I am asinine as i imagine the unfeasible to be reality,
being besieged by a fog of errant delusions.
"It's impossible to put someone you have once deeply loved
and genuinely cared for, completely out of your mind."
12:24 AM
Thursday, March 25, 2004
Paul is coming to lodge at my place tomorrow
and i have absolutely no idea when he'll be gone.
meanwhile, i would have to struggle with the discomfiture
of his presence skulking around in my abode.
shyckataboo.
i might even have to feign another masquerade
so that an acceptable impression would be etched in his memory
then perhaps my dad wouldn't be in a quandary.
who's paul? let's see..
He's 23 if I am not mistaken.
Currently on the waiting list of a financing vocation.
Mixed American and Chinese.
Not bad looking according to Mom and Sis.
Hmmmm.
Whatever it is,
he is still encroaching into my life! =/
kvetches kvetches kvetches.
ahhh. off to work!
9:25 PM
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
perhaps trust can not be divided equally among everyone
due to the individual flaws in which we possess.
but if one doesn't make an effort to place his/her trust
in his/her friends, what makes you think that they would
bank on you and reveal their skeletons in the cupboard to you?
it takes two to play the game of reliance indubitably.
but then again, trust is a prerogative in which we must earn,
overshadow our flaws and learn to desist renege.
aiyah what fucken shyt am i blabbering about?
oh yeah, its called nonsense.
10:03 PM
it has been a rather long time since
my gastric acts as a bothersome predicament.
it had to be on the blink earlier this morning again,
and permitted me to leave school with such excruciating agony.
i avow i could sense the churning of the acidic reactions in my stomach,
as if there were sparklers being set off trouncing every muscular wall,
and indubitably, triggering off a break out of cold sweat.
willie thought that i had cried. -__-
my hands were trembling uncontrollably due to the
insufferable pangs of constricting stings.
this predicament has never gotten this dreadfully acute before.
and the acid still bites within.. =/
7:04 PM
Sunday, March 21, 2004
if truth be told,
it is irrefutably that i am a fucken spit-wipe.
i am in desperate need of an outlet for my angst
its engulfing every fucken bit of me.
manipulating my every damned thoughts and actions
and i wouldnt even want to deem the possibilities
of what could possibly ensue when i release my malevolence.
it is currently atrocious enough, and in point of fact,
no one should not tolerate nor be pertinent towards it.
i am fucken deplorable.
9:42 PM
Saturday, March 20, 2004
Now that andrea has shoved her ass into bed,
stress has started pervade through the bliss of enjoyment.
i have finally managed to complete my english tuition hmwk
but what about chink, math, social studies and accounts?
notwithstanding the work, i still have a party to attend to tmr.
i seriously cogitate on whether i would have adequate time
to finish up all the work that has been assigned to me.
it is unfeasible not to be present there tomorrow
but yet i am also obligated to accomplish my assignments.
this is indubitably a catch-22. =/
2:01 AM
Friday, March 19, 2004
hahahahahahahaha!!
Andrea is a quintessence of fiddlesticks!!
along with her stupid donkey Timmy. -__-
now being online is more appealing due to that silly clown.
she is such a hilarity la! :D
thats why i love her so much!
that nutty nitwit. :b
11:32 PM
I feel extremely guilty right now.
I shouted at him due to my aggravation accumulated
as things did not go according as planned.
i thoroughly abhor abrupt changes.
despite all that, he still came into the room
and offered me a sweet he'd know i'd crave for.
i hate to admit it but he might just be changing into a rather swt boy.
though he still is exceedingly irksome sometimes.
takes after me la huh. heehee.
but seriously, i appreciate that alot.
Thanks Jarrell.
10:29 PM
was just harking back to my reminiscence earlier today.
whats astounding is my current perspicacity of my preceding discernments.
a ludicrous fool is what i perceive out of those views.
hah, but i suppose everyone does mature in time.
(alright fine, i admit i'm just consoling myself.)
but musing over those recollections,
have undeniably triggered in pining for in me.
and indubitably, one of them assimilate into my recent memories.
Shalini
although we are not knowledgeable of the swing of things
currently wavering in each others' lives now.
i still remember rather vividly what happened on 16th August 2003.
a ludicrous romantic i irrefutably was,
who brought her and myself memoirs etched in our minds.. :)
i recall the extreme apprehension that imbued me then,
for her confirmation to spend her intended celebration of her birthday.
as soon as i acknowledged the affirmation from her,
i hurried down to collect the cake i've ordered
and brought it over to Al Dente Trattoria over at the Esplanade,
where I've reserved a table for 2 for dinner that night.
Completing all that, i purchased a bouquet of roses blue for her
and walked in anticipation over to her block below.
Upon her arrival down, i ushered her into the awaited mercedes cab.
I doubt I will forget the gobsmack look she had on her face.
We've finally pulled in when it the clouds had no more capacity
and started to release a slight drizzle.
Notwithstanding the sprinkle, a rainbow of iridescent colours was unveiled.
Reality was no doubt amazing, superior than the power of invention.
the donning of her necklace added on to the seemingly fallacy of it all.
dinner was definitely great. and the cake was carried in soon after,
lit with 14 candles with her preferred chocolate cake.
Indeed a magnificently beautiful sight.
That day has unquestionably drained me of my savings.
But it served the intended purpose rather well i hope,
to etch that day, imbued with only euphoria, into her memoir. :)
2:06 AM
my predilection for
Carmbert has undeniably deepened.
loving that sweet
Mr Man more and more each day.
I'm truly grateful we've gotten closer this year.
with you around, the millieu is merely joie de vivre!
(okay, translation : the atmosphere is simply fun with liveliness)
you've definitely brought so much vivacity and laughter to me.
Thank you, for being so wonderful you are. :)
Cause here in my heart, there's a picture of us.
Together forever unfaded and unbroken.
Wherever you are, your love covers me.
Forever more, you'll be here in my heart.
12:55 AM
during lunch this afternoon at JB.
Dad :
if i wasn't hungry, i would have brought you to eat something
much more delicious than KFC.
Me :
ehh what restaurant is that?
Dad :
roadside stall lah! cheaper and nicer.
my dad still belongs to the bucolic lifestyle afterall.
he never fails to shatter my sanguinity either.
infantile man who's still an adolescent at heart
but yet repudiates that actuality.
ohwell, nevertheless, yay to daddioo!
12:44 AM
I currently have an aversion for..
Rachel, Emily and Sem.
What's the meaning of this?
writing in my blog and declaring that im horny?
tell me where do my horns protrudefrom?! huh huh?!
no where to be located right right right?!
liar liar pants on fire, nose as long as a telephone wire!
hmph.
okay, now that im done with my succinct kvetching.
im back to loving them again. :)
12:35 AM
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
Belle is one helluva horny ass!
i shant expose anymore of her secrets!
bye belle!
HAHAHAHAHHAHA.
emilyyyyy. rocks. bye!
3:53 PM
heyy!
sem here.
i'm at belle's place now and she's got no clue that i'm blogging here.
muahaha.
she's watching some porn show upstairs with the others.
lalala.
this is probably the only entry in her entire blog without bombastic words!
(:
well, before she catches me,
i'm off!
mwah-
3:38 PM
Tuesday, March 16, 2004
after such a dreadfully long time,
i finally went out with sem. :)
am always satiated with euphoria whenever im with her.
unquestionably, a Godsent blessing bestowed upon me.
can't believe that i could actually bear not communicating with her
not to mention, for more than an entire week!
gee, i have no clue what went off beam in my head.
maybe thats what has been causing so much despondency in me lately.
have been extremely peevish, crochety and often reticent.
indubitably, i admit, i am nothing without my other half.
but although they are some stuff that.......... nvm!
okay, i think i'll stop nattering now, before her ego starts to amplify.
heehee, off to watch tvee!
and i miss xinying and merser.. :(
10:09 PM
Monday, March 15, 2004
Such a lovely song to all the people i treasure most.
They are indubitably the best gift one could ever receive
perhaps i may not show it, but i love each and everyone of you
more than you think i do. :)
8:31 PM
Javier - If i never get to heaven
What does your love mean to me
its something i can't answer easily
just like the air that i breathe
you fill me up inside, you give me all that i need
like a bird flying high on a summers day
you're the wind that carries me away
to a place where you and i will always stay forever
if i never get to heaven then at least i will have known
i had an angel here on earth to call my very own
and if this world should end tomorrow, girl this much i know is true
i have found my piece of heaven the day that i found you
longer than poets will rhyme
my love will burn for you until the end of time
if i should die before tomorrow comes
i wont regret a single day, because i had your love
must be somethin in the way you say my name
it takes away my worries and my pain
i know we will make it through the rain together
if i never get to heaven then at least i will have known
i had an angel here on earth that i could call my very own
and if this world should end tomorrow, girl this much i know is true
i have found my piece of heaven the day that i found you
like a river flows and a flower grows, my love for you will never fade
like the sun will rise in the morning sky you know i am here to stay forever
if i never get to heaven then at least i will have known
i had an angel here on earth that i could call my very own
and if this world should end tomorrow, girl this much i know is true
i have found my piece of heaven the day that i found you
like a river flows and a flower grows, my love for you will never fade
like the sun will rise in the morning sky you know i am here to stay.
8:17 PM
fabulous. my right little finger is swollen right now.
i had no idea why i let the hamster sink its teeth into my finger
and not fling it off when it did so for more than 15s.
maybe cos i did not want it to hurt itself since its still young
and in the end, im enduring the agony.
Some others do turn to me when they need help,
and im more than willing to be there for them.
In fact, i'm really honoured and truly grateful.
but who's gonna be there for me when i need to pour out
everything?
every single damn thing thats cramming inside of me.
who would wanna discover that im not what my facade reveals?
who's not gonna judge my flaws and accept my imperfection?
who's gonna listen to my troubles even if they do not seem severe?
who's gonna be there when i break down into tears, when i cry?
don't start telling me that you're gonna be there.
cause whenever i need someone, no one appears to be here.
yeah, and the damned truth is that i am inconspicuously alone.
guess its my own misdeamour to begin with anyway.
i didnt let anyone see through the fallacy of my disguise.
i'm sick to the bone of appearing to be strong and cheerful.
I just wanna sit down somewhere and let my tears fall.
despise and condemn me if you might,
just fuck off and let me cry.
1:03 AM
Sunday, March 14, 2004
I sense the satiation of the Lord today in church.
I finally stepped foot into Lighthouse after several weeks.
I can't believe i actually placed the candour and solace
of Pastor Rony's heartening messages way out of my head.
and the best of it all,
God spoke to me through the power of today's message.
It is with allusion to the Adam and Eve, our very first beginning
that Pastor Rony put
Satan's Strategy into our picture.
1. A careful choice of an instrument for deception
2. A careful choice of an easier prey.
3. A careful choice of an opportune time.
4. A careful choice of approach.
5. A careful choice of instigation.
and indubitably, I have once again fallen into his vile fraud.
he has indeed chosen an opportune time to assail me.
as Pastor Rony said..
"If we're all alone, feeling very discouraged and have no mood to
talk to anyone, not even God, we're in a position of vulnerability.
Also, when you wanna be free from everyone and stranded in your
own chimera, an opportune time for our susceptibility, our defeat."
Therefore, we should talk to God even when we have the least of
moods to and tell him all our predicaments and dissatisfication.
As promised, He'll consistently mollify our trepidation soon after.
All you hafta do, is have faith.
Amen to that. :)
In addition, i've been strucked by the devil's choice of approach too.
imbueing me with many questions of doubts and my beliefs.
I shall make a clean breast that there are times whereby
I do not believe what others believe in.
take last night for example..
I felt faithless among the faithful.
I felt empty among the satiated.
I felt ashamed among the conceited.
and frankly, I didn't feel God's presence at all.
ohwell. I'm just glad He spoke to me again with reassurance. :)
11:50 AM
Saturday, March 13, 2004
Perhaps it is a good thing that my presence seems impalpable
and that my existence now do not make any inroads on you.
i miss you though.
hmmm.
6:22 AM
Friday, March 12, 2004
everyone seems to be having forty winks now.
and i'm left abandoned in the solitude of boredom.
have been mulling over a myriad of predicaments
to which, evidently, have acquired no resolution too.
sigh.
earlier today, i unleashed my necessity for someone to pin their ears back,
and thankfully, was granted by a rejoinder from a silhouette
which has inconspiciously been there to allay my burdens consistently.
that i'm immensely grateful for in all genuineness.
this silhouette belonging to yanyu. :)
however, i did not adhere to the advice she endowed me with.
the figment of my imagination is a nip in the bud to reality,
fettering me back to a situation whereby nonchalancy prevails.
i'm merely in the mood to be in a state of bewilderment,
impervious to the nature of the aura that besieges me.
probable that i'll not lift a finger to call a halt to problems
even if they shall stare intently into the unruffled eyes of mine.
i'm just utterly sick to the back teeth about this gobbledygook.
12:28 AM
Thursday, March 11, 2004
hahahaha, im enjoying myself talking to my bro's friends.
i think his friend, issac, is really adorable!
and that wayne fellow, i felt awesome chiding him!
he's picking on the wrong guy who has a cantankerous sis like me.
HAH. senseless uncouth boy.
and its really side-splitting watching my brother
play tic-tac-toe with his friend.
ahaha, he was singing to himself when he won.
"im gonna winnnnn. im gonnnaa winnn winnnn winnn..
oh shitte, im gonna lose."
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. he's so bluidy full of himself.
every round he wins, another song of droll lyrics is being sung!
spills the laughter outta me at
FULL force!
and to boot that, he just asked me to sign a letter
in case that wayne fella goes up to his teacher and kvetches,
saying that i was the one who was chided wayne, and not him.
hahahahahahaaha!
my brother is phenomenally uproarious! I LOVE HIM! :D
9:02 PM
my brother is absolutely irksome. he's such an idiot.
not to mention, he's extremely dim-witted.
and im just typing this so that he could read it,
since he's beside me, reading every damn thing i type.
and he just kicked my face. that bothersome freak.
if another pimple pops up there,
he's gonna get screwed up and down, left and right, by my dog.
and that i guarantee him. that thick-skulled moron.
and guess what he's saying?
"freaks are cool man. so cooool. yeah babeh."
babeh my ass la, infantile silly clown.
8:29 PM
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
i never seem to be doing whats expected to.
constantly putting a spanner into the works.
so simply brilliant of me.
urgh, just raze it all.
i'll just impugn myself for my faux pas.
10:09 PM
today is just about gratifying.
managed to swot up quite a bit at burger king.
and also got to natter with cheryl again,
to catch up on what's been occuring as of late.
it has recurrently been good fun to chinwag with her.
especially because i feel unruffled and comfortable with her around.
and to boot that, she also said one of the heartening things that
i have heard from the time i have been permanently absent in stmargs.
"Sometimes i wish you were still here in school."
Feasible that my friends do feel analogous to that too,
but perhaps it is her sincerity that really touch a chord in me.
cheryl : and i just wanna say thank you..
for turning to me when you need a listening ear,
for being there to perk up my dejection,
for appreciating whatever i could do for you.
these are unfathomable gifts, effortless but momentous.
and in all honesty, i am exceedingly grateful for them.
Cross my heart. :)
8:38 PM
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
this is preposterous.
now
this has become a fad among my classmates.
belly welly has a smelly belly who always watches telly welly
and eats a lot of yellow jelly welly... etc.
furthermore, to boot that,
they are currently claiming that willie and i have a thing for each other,
and that we're compatible?!?! -smacks forehead-
sorry, but i do not think willie goes for hermaphrodites.
i am gonna get exceedingly cheesed off in school.
someone liberate me!!! :(
10:00 PM
shytte.
i'm feeling ridiculously jealous.
9:38 PM
Monday, March 08, 2004
everytime i feel like blogging about something,
my mind wipes out completely upon reaching "Create New Post".
is this part of blogspot brainwashing scheme?
or perhaps its just my absent-mindedness. heh.
i talked to her for an hour or so i reckon.
never expected it would be that difficult to put through my points
or rather, my own personal hypothesis.
was trying very hard to be tactful with the words i used
so as not to imbue more salt unto her wounds.
i divulged a little of my secrets to her in reference to the situation
and also, to lighten her fraught spirits up a little.
i wonder if it was superfluous, but nonetheless, hope it was successful.
so i finally came to comprehend what her standpoint.
also, cogitating upon whether she poured out any of
her constricted emotions that she kept inside of her.
it must have been rather odious for her
to have undergone all these in isolation.
predominantly, i guess it was triggered off with insensitivity
and no doubt, misconception of perception.
i'm glad she came to a conclusion whereby she realised
she had a part to play for the misdemeanour.
confronting, whether of intention of questioning or clarification,
is irrefutably convoluted, and easier said than done.
no one was non-discriminatory from the start i guess.
and thats unquestionably, including me.
no one was solely to blame for whatever has happened,
each had a part to play, each of us impugn.
it is also incontrovertibly knotty to remain equitable.
oh well.
10:14 PM
dont talk to belle when her brain goes missing.
she's absolutely incredibly annoying.
utmost symphathy to andrea and carmen.
two exceedingly patient people.
NOT. ahahahahahaha! (see what i mean?)
and they actually put up with my nonsense.
thank you for ur tolerance dearies! :D
12:24 AM
Sunday, March 07, 2004
yee diii yaa deee vooo!
belle misses yoU!
11:59 PM
sigh. have i been neglecting many?
although i do meet up with sem every week.
it just doesn't feel as if i am aware of her well-being.
and that definitely bites.
a myriad of things have happened,
there's a rush of thoughts currently evading my mind,
and i'm in no mood to blog.
oh, but shopping does make me happy.
anyone would like to sponser me? :D
i bought a pair of really awesome shoes!!!
i do not care if you beg to differ, cos its the best to me!
what else, i purchased a maroon-brown tee?
n a necklace, n pretty pretty sports bra! (oops.)
ahaha. and a polo tee from reebok as well.
woo! enjoyable weekend with the greatest bunch of friends.
can't wait for the impending weekend ahead. :)
11:41 PM
Thursday, March 04, 2004
sisso : I have no clue whether you visit my blog
although you are knowledgeable about it, so i just wanna say thanks.
thank you for letting me know that what i've done for you
is appreciated and not superfluous. that, i really am grateful for. :)
please clarify before i detonate you with a bazooka,
what WEIRD characteristics do i possess??
i do
Not possess weird characteristics okay!
to boot that, quit saying that i'm crappy.
it's always when i give my personal hypothesis on a certain perspective,
you would unremittingly pigeon-hole it as bullshyt.
hoi, im not as puerile as you think i am. i've matured!!
as a final point, i am not a tweety look-alike. -__-
loga : ur sycophancy is deeply appreciated.
but my english is candidly not as good as it appears to be.
hope things have been going on well for you.
and i'm really sorry that sem and i didnt go down for ur chalet.
we'll hang out again some time soon alright? :)
cher : hey girl, how have you been coping along? it better be good.
i know i have not been spending time with you lately,
and penitently, i apologise for that.
well, i certainly do hope that he has been taking care of you
and things have been running along the smooth track.
please do not get too indulged in the fallacy of love
and neglect whats unquestionably crucial this year.
im wishing your every day would be one worth remembering.
take care, and will see you around soon.
6:50 PM
sheila (indo accent): did you put gel on ur hair today?
me : no, i waxed it.
sheila : huh, you mean you have so much time to burn the candle and collect the wax then put it on ur hair? i didn't know you could put that on ur hair.
me : -_-" nvm sheila.
hahahahahahaha.
i've indeed been enjoying thoroughly myself in class.
great bunch of nonsensical people who never fail to crack me up.
especially sheila! she sits beside me.
ALWAYS gets me exploding into hysterics,
so does the rest of her indonesian clique. so cute!! =x
but i completely abhor it when she pinches my cheeks
she has absolutely no idea the twinges of pain i undergo
and its gonna sag like bulldog when i age!!
she is so paying for my face-lifting next time,
and that goes out to all those who dare pinches my cheeks the next time!!
heehee, i think my cheeks would be out of harm's way for now. :)
6:27 PM
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
went down to Red Cross Home for the Disabled today.
it was a fruitful trip, this i must point out.
that was the first time i saw the class work in unison.
divulged an impressive class spirit that is usually unconspicuous.
other than elaine slating pitiable zi xiong again,
the others worked pretty good together.
oh oh oh!!!
Some students from United World College went down too.
as well as SAJC and JJC, but thats extraneous to my point.
The girls in my class were literally scorching with heat
when
he alighted from the bus.
-phee ewww- indeed.
i think we were all eyeing on him, instead of the pple there.
oops.. hahaha :)
anyway, this visit there has made me realise how fortunate i am.
although im somewhat desirious of their unproblematic lives.
its unperturbed and hassle-free, what i need most right now.
to talk turkey, i feel rather idyllic around them.
as no need is mandatory for me to conform to the judgemental al fresco,
having to condone to others vilifying my imperfection.
ahhh okay nvm, i shall stop kvetching. for now.
going off for dinner, den to study.
i am seriously too indolent. i need to work work work!!
okay, shut up belle. scram!
6:44 PM
Tuesday, March 02, 2004
this is fabulous.
i was just about to burn my peronalized Five For Fighting CD
when it dawned upon me that my tracks are wide of the mark.
i feel like shoving my hands in, ripping iMesh into pieces,
stuff the pieces into a glass bottle, and smash it against the wall!
ahhh. everything seems to be going haywired. :(
sigh, nvm.
i'll just burn my close-to-heart affection-rousing cd.
and that sounds ridiciously asinine. lol.
i'm just pleased that its filled with heart-warming songs
with exceptionally meaningful lyrics in which i can relate to. :)
2:19 PM
lets see what i did in school today.
7 - 8am : flag raising and english reading.
8 - 9am : free period - i drew on my bag. =x
9 - 9.30am : PE - ran and kicked ball.
9.30 - 10.10am : Eng - Tongue Twisters.
10.10am : School Ends.
Great, what a total waste of time.
I did grocery shopping today though.
Went down to Thomson Plaza straight after school.
Spent an hour or so in Popular and bought additional 2 books to study.
Yes, i just had to append to my accumulated burden.
Helped granny bought fishballs n cake.
I purchased durian puffs too!
gonna savour those enticing munchies later. :D
2:03 PM
what is with the big hoo-haa that I kick ball?
and its also a gag that i play bball too.
sheesh.
this is irking so much aggravation outta me.
can guys fizzle out their dogmatic perception
and quit being so bigoted towards girls and their abilities?
the noises made were seriously redundant.
just grow up, infantile lads in my school.
1:47 PM
Monday, March 01, 2004
frankly, quit being such a diacritic.
it's churning my currents of irritation viciously.
your standards of pple are seemingly set beyond attainable height
but don't cross the line whereby insults should be relinquished.
Reflect on your own faults, flaws and blemishes
before persecuting and discrimating against others.
It's either you are exceedingly distressed about the world you're in
or you have a kick out of dirty-digging others' imperfection
as you want to feel better about yourself.
and in case you are not knowledgeable about it,
victims of your spiteful annotations do have feelings.
and i'd certainly do appreciate it tremendously
if you'd stuff a sock into that stinking gap of yours,
before i shove it up for you personally.
8:43 PM
bbmak - Emily's Song
You will always be
The one that I adore
Mean so much to me
But dreams you were before
It's you Emily, that makes me write this song.
Your eyes are open wide
But still so much to see
All that's new to you
Seems so old to me
Now I'm far away, a minute seems so long
Its just another day without you
Its just another day that I'm not there
I'm gonna find a way to be so close to you
You've gotta know how much I care
Its just another day without you
Its just another day that I'm not there
I'm gonna give my love, my heart, my soul to you
All this I give to you, I swear
I'm longing to hold you
Feel you in my arms
Never let you go
Far from me for long
Girl I promise you
My feelings are so strong
Eyes are open wide
But still so much to see
All that's new to you
Seems so old to me
When I'm far away, a minute seems so long
Its just another day without you
Its just another day that I'm not there
I'm gonna give my love, my heart, my soul to you
All this I give to you, I swear
If only you could
Read what's on my mind
See right through my eyes
You'd sooner realize
Its just another day without you
Its just another day that I'm not there
I'm gonna give my love, my heart, my soul to you
All this I give to you, I swear
Its just another day without you
Its just another day that I'm not there
I'm gonna find a way to be so close to you
You've gotta know how much I care
8:38 PM
